Sometimes, do you ever feel like you are circling around and around the same mountain? Like you think you were making progress, only to be dragged back into it again? “hey, been here done that…”
One thing I’ve discovered is that nearly everyone goes through this. You most certainly aren’t alone.
I have felt that way more times then I can tell you. I will battle something down, and revel in that small thrill of victory… and then bam! It comes flying back into my lap for me to deal with again. I felt like a failure, and wonder why can’t I get passed this (over-come it, deal with it whatever the situation is.)
Certain “mountains” seem more condemning than others if I feel like I don’t have success with it. It used to bother me before that I was still dealing with issues from my childhood memories. I grew up with being told that what’s happened is done, pick yourself up and brush yourself off. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps. You can’t blame everything on your parents.
All those things are true, and yet they aren’t absolute. I can’t blame everything on my parents. I have my own free will now. I don’t want to live a life as a victim.
I also am not a book; turn the page and the story moves on. Sometimes what feels like going around the mountain is really just dealing with the same situation at a different level.
That sounds so simple, doesn’t it? But it’s easier to say “What’s wrong with me that I can’t get passed this?” then to take a minute and say, “Wow, I am recognizing things a little differently here. I have made steps, even if they seem small compared to the emotions I’m facing right now.”
Whenever I face my mountain again, it’s my time to trot out what I have learned. It’s my time to speak the truth to the mountain, despite what my emotions are feeling. The things I speak are-
1) God got me this far, he’s going to get me the rest of the way.
2) Despite how I feel, I am deeply loved, even if the only one I can count is God- He’s not angry with me. He will never leave me.
3) I have not failed, I am still learning.
4) This moment will pass.
5)There will be beauty from ashes from this situation.
Maybe you are facing a mountain today, or feel like you’ve gone around it before. Hang in there. You are making progress, even if you don’t see it. It will get better. I am a firm believer that we get to encourage others from the strength and encouragement we gain as we face our mountains. Even if you feel weak now, one day you will be encouraging someone else!